Last night, I had some time to kill before going to church so I decided to go into one of my favorite stores, Ross.
Not many times do I go into Ross without carrying something back out. It could be a piece of clothing, a pair of shoes, a pocket book, or something for the home but I usually come out with one (or two) items.
Last night I didn't.
It was hard.
I looked in every section. In the clothing section I saw a cute lace shrug that would be perfect for summer ($10.99). And in the housewares section, I saw this adorable little box with tiny drawers (big enough to hold jewelry) that I LOVED. I almost picked it up. But then I rememered: I didn't have money!
Well, I had $1 but really, that's not considered "money" if you know what I mean.
I had spent my week's allowance and would not have next week's money til Friday. So, with regret, I stepped away and moved on.
I know that if I would have had my credit card with me, I would have rationalized with myself to purchase one (or both) of the items mentioned above. And knowing me, a few months down the line, I would be wanting to get rid of one of them.
Last night's experience was actually freeing. True, I didn't really have the option to buy or not to buy since I didn't have the cash (or a credit card) on hand but being able to look at something, really want it and then turn and walk away was NICE. It let me know I can do it. It also reminded me that some things (the things that aren't really that important to me and that I can live without) will fade from my mind and in a day or a week, I won't remember what they were. The things that I truely desire (those items that call to me and speak to me) will be more important to me because I will have saved for them.
That's my first experience with 'window shopping' in a while. We'll see how the next episode goes!!